I understand the sentiment, but again, sometimes all you want to do is end the suffering. And, suicide does that for you. I don’t advocate for it. I just understand it, having come to that decision in the past.

Yes, I’m going to sleep. It was a pleasure to meet you. Thank you for being kind and curious.

To clarify, I am not suicidal. I was speaking of the past.

Yes, but luckily I love what I do. So, I get paid and I get the benefit of doing what I want to do in life.

And, with my money, I sponsor several impoverished children and give back as much as I can as often as I can.

I also spend a lot of time volunteering at places that help those who struggle with addiction.

Good. Suicide, of course, is permanent. Pain, I’ve found, is always temporary.

I make $155,000 USD per year. When I was homeless, obviously I had essentially no money most of the time.

When you get tired of constant and terrible pain, sometimes it seems the only way out.

Yes, but it took decades and lots of very hard work. I nearly gave up several times. In fact, I attempted suicide more than once, so I guess I did give up multiple times. But, I survived and I’m glad. Overall, I survived a lot of abuse and violence. It’s been a very difficult life, but it’s finally peaceful and I have a lot of happiness today.

Now I’m a software engineer making six figures. I went from nothing to what I consider very successful, albeit with tons and tons of really intense trauma.

I’m not sure what you’re asking. I was saying @[email protected] ’s comment is the most valuable reply I’ve read here, and that I have first hand experience living on the streets with no place to stay, and no money to speak of most of the time for years.

As someone who was homeless, living on the streets for years, this is the comment I think is the most valuable. You need to find out where to get shelter and food, and you need to know people’s contact info - it all needs to be written down and kept safe.

This is temporary. Everything is temporary. Don’t give up.

It’s called hypersexuality and is a symptom of many different things.