I cry almost daily.
Started getting this way when my wife passed. Now tons of things trigger it.
What happened to you happened to me with a great uncle when I was in my teens. He was a good person and tried to protect me from some of the BS that was happening. He had esophageal cancer. It took al long time before I broke down and when it happened I was on a small summertime school group trip. I was outside of a restaurant alone and no one knew. It was odd for me because I always took loss very hard and have since that point but I was mainly just numb.
It varies from person to person.
I can build a house from start to finish and figure it all out easily. I can rebuild a car pretty easy too. Computer hardware and networking stuff is no problem. I started navigating the us with nothing but maps (pre internet access availability for me) at 16 and have driven all over since. I excel in spatial relations from what I’m told.
I don’t understand nouns, verbs, adverbs, or anything that goes along with it but can speak and write clearly. Learning languages is a pita. Same goes for programming. Interacting with people outside of certain things in person makes me cringe. Interacting on the phone is worse unless I know someone, I’m currently still using my wife’s debit card to access my bank account 7 years after she passed because I have to call the bank to fix mine and I can’t stand the thought.