I don’t think there is an after life or a heaven. But if there was, what exactly would envision doing there?

the constant struggle to live in the present. we will all be dead and forgotten soon, so why bother living in a constant pissed off state of mind when none of it matters anyway

Retirement sounds great till you try it. The expression is “even your garage can’t get any cleaner”. This refers to the boredom retirement can be for some. The solution that I found was a part time job, not for the money, but doing something I enjoyed. You no longer have the pressure of a “real” job. The best job that you will ever have is the job that you really don’t need.