I watch some YouTube channels that narrate crime events while doing makeup, to some people this might sound weird but it’s actually very comforting because it feels as if it was a friend telling you something that happened while you eat or do your own makeup yourself.
But I’m starting to notice that listening to these terrible things happening makes me more wary around other people in situations where normally I wouldn’t be overthinking so much. I’m scared about making friends in uni because what if any of them ends up being dangerous people?
This also translates to dating, I stopped going on dates because I keep thinking I’ll end up meeting my future murderer or rapist.
I’m even scared to meet my friend group this summer, we are going to a holiday chalet to spend some days in that house. I obviously know nothing is going to happen but I have this small worry that “what if they’re just plotting to kill me in that house” I might sound like I’m crazy right now.
But I can’t keep thinking that these paranoid thoughts would have saved a lot of the people in those true crime cases.
Anyone with a similar experience or am I schizophrenic? 😂
I have not watched the makeup content, but I used to listen to true crime podcasts. As I have gotten older it has become impossible for me to listen to these though.
So often they will glorify the killers and try to humanize them. Then the victims are just regarded like pawns in their story.
After a while I really thought about what it would be like to be these victims and it made me sick. These aren’t scream queens in a horror movie where it is all made up just to scare you. These people went though hell and agony and that should not be used as “content.”
These were people’s kids, siblings, parents, grandparents, etc. They were loved and innocent and had their lives brutally taken away for no reason or fault of their own. The fact that they are treated as “tallies” or just numbers and names on a killers spree is beyond disrespectful. I can’t imagine seeing my family member that I loved being wrapped up in this content when it must already be so painful that they are gone.
Now I can’t listen to the true crime murder stuff. Sometimes I will listen to scary stories in the woods or something, but nothing where it is glorifying killing. It’s not good for my mental health.
Maybe that’s thing about podcasts because I’ve never seen the content creators glorify the killers. I think it’s because the Makeup + True crime content creators are women, we tend to be the victims of the cases regularly so it’s always narrated through the lives of the victims.
The comments are always full of shock and sympathy for the victims and also anecdotes. There’s a lot of complaining about the soft sentences for the criminals which are surprisingly commonly low.
Another common thing is criticism to the police for their ineptitude, in most of the cases they don’t it seriously.